The bouquets turned out really good and the cakepops were delicious. We made chocolate, white and red velvet cake flavors. We sold them for $1.25 each or in arrangements ranging from $12-$40.
We have made some great progress and are so excited yet nervous about what comes next!
Our first goal is to raise $4000 which pays the homestudy fee of $1500 and the agency fee of $2500. To us $4000 is a lot of money and for this adoption it is only the tip of the iceberg. Adoption will cost us anywhere from $15,000-$30,000. which is a huge chunk of our income for the year.
I am happy to state we have raised with the help of friends and family $3000 of our $4000 goal and are so close! There is so much anticipation and excitement in our hearts right now we could burst!
We have the contract and all of the legal paperwork ready to get notarized. We send that into the agency and they will call us to schedule our homestudy.
I must be honest, the homestudy intimidates me. Its another one of those necessary evils, you really want to adopt and be a mommy, but you have to pay someone $1500 to basically judge if you are fit to be a parent.
The unfair part of that is there are babies born who are unwanted every day, and no one is at their parents home deciding whether they get to have the baby or not. In most cases there probably should be someone there to make sure the children are cared for properly, fed, clothed and bathed and are not living in absolute squalor.
We have this special gift as human beings to pity ourselves and whine and cry about the things out of our control. I must tell you I had my self-pity moment for about a year! I basically was in mourning about my "failures" as a woman. I felt that my infertility was a failure to do what was the most basic thing a woman should be able to do and that is bear children, procreate etc.
After all, when I was a kid all I wanted to do was be a mommy when I grew up. I didn't see anything that would be more important than that. I wanted to be the best mommy in the whole world. Help my kids with school crafts, sports and take them to church and raise them the way I was raised to respect my elders and God.
I feel that anyone who has gone through infertility needs to grieve, it is a loss of the children you would have had or the children you dreamed you would have. Did Kevin and I sit there and discuss what our kids would look like, absolutely, I wanted a little girl with my black hair and Italian skin and Kevin's bright blue eyes and he wanted a sturdy son who he can teach to play football. We had our dreams and we have successfully understood that they may never be. You have to mourn and grieve that and move on.
Once we were finally able to get past the heartache and sense of loss. We chose to look up. We chose to stop wallowing in self pity and to stop feeling jealous of people who could just "get pregnant" their first time trying. Nobody likes a bitter hard person, I did not want to be that girl.
So we have all of this hope and love to give to our new child whether a boy or a girl he or she will be loved tremendously and spoiled I am sure by us and our loving supportive family. There is some great lessons to be learned in this process and Kevin and I are willing and able students.
So lets just keep positive and trudge our way along this path to adoption and see what God has in store for us, I am convinced that God would not have put these desires of mommyhood in my heart if he was not going to allow me to be a mommy. In the meantime we need all of your prayers and support.
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We have the contract and all of the legal paperwork ready to get notarized. We send that into the agency and they will call us to schedule our homestudy.
I must be honest, the homestudy intimidates me. Its another one of those necessary evils, you really want to adopt and be a mommy, but you have to pay someone $1500 to basically judge if you are fit to be a parent.
The unfair part of that is there are babies born who are unwanted every day, and no one is at their parents home deciding whether they get to have the baby or not. In most cases there probably should be someone there to make sure the children are cared for properly, fed, clothed and bathed and are not living in absolute squalor.
We have this special gift as human beings to pity ourselves and whine and cry about the things out of our control. I must tell you I had my self-pity moment for about a year! I basically was in mourning about my "failures" as a woman. I felt that my infertility was a failure to do what was the most basic thing a woman should be able to do and that is bear children, procreate etc.
After all, when I was a kid all I wanted to do was be a mommy when I grew up. I didn't see anything that would be more important than that. I wanted to be the best mommy in the whole world. Help my kids with school crafts, sports and take them to church and raise them the way I was raised to respect my elders and God.
I feel that anyone who has gone through infertility needs to grieve, it is a loss of the children you would have had or the children you dreamed you would have. Did Kevin and I sit there and discuss what our kids would look like, absolutely, I wanted a little girl with my black hair and Italian skin and Kevin's bright blue eyes and he wanted a sturdy son who he can teach to play football. We had our dreams and we have successfully understood that they may never be. You have to mourn and grieve that and move on.
Once we were finally able to get past the heartache and sense of loss. We chose to look up. We chose to stop wallowing in self pity and to stop feeling jealous of people who could just "get pregnant" their first time trying. Nobody likes a bitter hard person, I did not want to be that girl.
So we have all of this hope and love to give to our new child whether a boy or a girl he or she will be loved tremendously and spoiled I am sure by us and our loving supportive family. There is some great lessons to be learned in this process and Kevin and I are willing and able students.
So lets just keep positive and trudge our way along this path to adoption and see what God has in store for us, I am convinced that God would not have put these desires of mommyhood in my heart if he was not going to allow me to be a mommy. In the meantime we need all of your prayers and support.
Click here to Donate Using PayPal
Stay tuned for the next fundraiser...
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